Coming Home: Medicine, Mothers, and the Unveiling of Pain (Journal from 6th-10th September)
Arrival in South AfricaIt has been the longest time since I’ve written a blog — for good reason. I’ve just landed in Karoo, South Africa, after Dubai, and it has been a whirlwind. Since arriving, I’ve been embraced by Rhoda and Zelkhia — two extraordinary medicine women who have been walking realms and dimensions long […]
Resilience, Closure, and the Journey Onward – Tarot questions based on yesterday and todays pull)
A Day of Errands and EndingsThe day began early, gym behind me, with practical tasks calling. I met with a judge to close down an account — the first time we had seen each other in months. Not easy, but necessary. From there, I tended to small but important details: a pedicure to address old […]
Through the Motions, Toward Closure Tarot pull for 3rd and 4th September Journal.
Interrupted SleepThe night was restless — awake at 4:10, then again at 4:50. Finally, I rose and moved through my morning routine. Breath, movement, discipline. It steadied me, though the clarity of yesterday was not as strong today. My higher self felt more distant, quieter. Questions of AuthenticityI asked again about charging money, about how […]
Conversations with the Higher Self and the Practice of Being (Tarot pull based on yesterday and todays morning reflection) 3rd September
Dreams and Rising EarlyThe night was filled with flashing dreams of the Old Earth. At 5 a.m. I woke, surprisingly alert. Rather than sink into heavy thoughts, I rose and went to the roof. There, with the first light of day, I practiced Kriya breathing and energy work. When I sat to meditate, something opened. […]
Truth, Dreams, and Presence in the Old Earth (2nd September Journal)
Dreams of TensionThe night carried vivid dreams. I saw Maya again, felt the conflict rise, and heard words exchanged that cut deep. Even in dreamscape, the old ties stir. I asked myself on waking: what is it I truly seek from her that I cannot give myself? The dream left me unsettled but reflective. Morning […]
Early Rises, Niacin Flushes, and the Grace of an Upgrade
The Early WakeI stirred at 3:30 a.m., mind restless, knowing I had set the alarm for 4. Should I get up now? Should I wait? Finally, when the alarm rang, I rose straight away. Morning practices called me, and they reminded me again of a truth I too often forget: early rising is my sweet […]
SHM, Impermanence, and Blessings on the Path 31st August Journal (written 1st September)
Morning Work and SHMThe day began with focus on the book. I reviewed the prayers and noticed how I had repeated the moment of discovering SHM in both the opening and again in 40 Days and 40 Nights. I amended the flow, giving SHM the weight it deserves — the thread that runs through everything. […]
Restless Nights, Sacred Routines, and Preparing the Departure
The Barking and the RestlessnessLast night was restless. A neighbor’s dog barked at the lake for nearly ten minutes while its owner stood by. At 11:30 p.m., exhaustion turned to frustration. I banged on the window, then finally shouted into the night. Not my proudest response — but sometimes stress cracks the surface. Sleep didn’t […]
Tears, Release, and Making Space for the New Earth Tarot pull based on yesterday and today’s morning reflection (30th Aug)
Dreams of LongingThe night carried vivid dreams. Again and again, I returned to Maya. Each time I closed my eyes, I found myself coming to her in tears, unable to express what lived inside me. I only wanted to be held. Her pain showed itself too — her teeth missing, her own struggles laid bare. […]
Looking at Suffering, Practicing Freedom, and the Smile of SHM (Tarot pull baseed on yesterday and this mornings reflection 29th August)
Morning Thoughts and SufferingI woke around 5:30 a.m. with looping thoughts, circling money concerns. I tried to rest again, but the light was rising and I knew I had to get up. Meditation came first. Like Buddha teaches: look directly at the suffering. What is its root? I looked at money, the Old Earth weight, […]