August 5 – Rage, Reflection & Responsibility
Woke up at 6:00 AM after wild, charged dreams of the old Earth. I was in a rage — shouting at someone who wouldn’t respond, slamming their laptop even though they were online. It was physical. Primal. A desperate cry to be heard.
I sense this is tied to yesterday — to not speaking my truth in the presence of the so-called master. Being caught in the SAD triangle again. Suppression. And so it re-emerged in the dream as rage.
Part of me wanted to go to breathing class today, to share it. To get it off my chest. But the rain, and the full schedule ahead, pulled me into stillness. Maybe this one is mine to transmute alone. Maybe nothing needs fixing. Just witnessing.
Today’s focus:
- Bank errands
- Gym
- YENERGY video
- Responding to those starting the cleanse
Truthfully, I’m relieved there are only a few moving through it right now. I don’t have the space to hold many at once. But I trust this field knows what it’s doing. I’ll do my best.
Also need to:
- Follow up with Lakshika about the Sacred Store
- Check in on the enema bag sample — ideally to be sent before I pass through the old Earth on the way to South Africa
I choose to trust divine timing.
To love and lead from my heart.
1. Where am I being called to deepen my devotion to the path — even when the path feels unclear?
What internal compass is guiding me now that I must trust more than logic?
Card: Nine of Swords
The Nine of Swords reveals a layer of unconscious fear still shaping your path — not truth, but trauma. You’re being invited to walk forward not by pushing away fear, but by meeting it fully, as a sacred teacher. Your compass is not logic right now — it’s your ability to stay present with discomfort, to witness the wound without collapsing into it. This is devotion: to walk through the night and still bow to the dawn.
2. What is the hidden lesson in recent power dynamics or ‘false mastery’ I’ve encountered?
How can I alchemize frustration into discernment and sovereignty?
Card: Page of Cups
The Page of Cups brings humility — the kind that sees clearly without needing to correct. The lesson in the false mastery you’ve witnessed is this: true sovereignty doesn’t seek to dominate. It listens. It creates. It trusts. You alchemize your frustration not through confrontation, but by returning to the innocent clarity within you — the part that knows truth without needing permission. Stay soft, but rooted.
3. Where in my body or being is the rage still speaking — and what truth does it need me to voice?
What would it mean to express without needing to be understood?
Card: The Hanged Man
The Hanged Man speaks of suspended power — of rage caught between worlds. It’s still in your body because it hasn’t been reframed. Not repressed — reframed. This card invites you to flip the lens: rage is sacred fuel, but only when seen from the soul’s perspective. Speak not to be heard, but to free your own voice. That’s the real liberation. Rage doesn’t need an audience — it needs air.
4. What sacred rhythm is trying to establish itself in my daily life right now?
How can I honour momentum without abandoning rest?
Card: The Magician
The Magician says your rhythm is already here — your mornings, your breathing, your movement, your creative flow. The sacred is not later. It’s now. You honour both momentum and rest by anchoring your rituals in presence rather than pressure. Each act becomes an invocation — not to do more, but to channel more intentionally. Your life is already a spell. Cast it wisely.
5. Where am I being shown that less is more — in clients, in content, in creation?
What does right timing mean for the next phase of my work?
Card: Queen of Cups
The Queen of Cups whispers: stillness holds power. You are not here to shout. You’re here to feel, and from that, magnetize. Fewer clients. Deeper work. Less noise. More transmission. Right timing now means moving from emotional truth, not deadlines. Your next phase isn’t about expansion — it’s about coherence. Let your frequency do the speaking.
6. What is this moment asking me to surrender — not because I’ve failed, but because I’ve grown?
What can only emerge once I let go of what no longer fits?
Card: Six of Wands
The Six of Wands affirms: you’ve already won a battle — but part of you is still fighting. You can surrender the need to prove yourself now. This is the maturation of your mission. What’s emerging is leadership without effort, visibility without grasping. Let go of proving. Let the fruits speak. The ones who see will find you.
7. How is my leadership evolving through this integration phase?
What new archetype or embodiment is ready to come forward in me?
Card: Five of Swords
The Five of Swords shows the remnant of an old archetype — the warrior who still thinks the war is personal. Your leadership is evolving into something cleaner now: less about right or wrong, more about resonance. The new archetype is the Peaceful Guardian — one who protects the field by walking away from unnecessary battles, not because they’re weak, but because they’re beyond it.
