9th August – The Worm That Does Not Die
Last night’s dreams felt like portals in themselves.
A double-decker bus crashed over a bridge — the passenger escaped, and I tried to alert the authorities, only for a woman to block me.
Then I was by a vast sea-lake, suspended in the air, surrounded by alien activity.
Later, Maya appeared in the dream — not together, but in the same space. We’d touch, hug, then pull away, as if remembering that what once was is no longer. She hugged me from behind while I looked at the sunset in this strange place. The moment was tender, yet heavy.
I woke at 6:20.
The birds outside were loud — almost insistent. My body ached, though I didn’t go to the gym yesterday as it was closed.
As I read the original Aramaic New Testament this morning, something caught me:
Mark 9:14 — “Where their worm does not die and the fire is not quenched.”
Yeshua repeats it.
Is this “worm” the parasite within?
The one that lives deep in the unconscious — guiding choices that sabotage the soul’s own nature?
“If your foot subverts you, cut it off… for it is better to enter life crippled than to have two feet and fall into Gehenna.”
What if this is not about physical mutilation at all…
…but about removing what feeds the parasite?
The unconscious contracts, attachments, and shadows that drain life-force.
That’s the work here.
To name the worm.
To bring it to light.
To choose the fire of transformation over the slow decay of suppression.
Today my focus is feedback — responding to what’s coming in, refining the book, weaving the journal sections with earlier chapters.
The YENERGY video still waits, the hours in Descript feeling endless. The Orientation piece also calls — to let people know that the AI version of me is always present, answering any question at any stage of the cleanse. But no new participants have joined in the last day or two. The ones on the path are already walking.
There’s no rush.
Some things are born in urgency.
Others in silence.
—Tarot Pull—
1. What is the deeper truth Yeshua’s “worm that does not die” is revealing to me now?
→ Which unconscious parasite still shapes my choices without my awareness?
Card: Nine of Cups
This card shows the worm’s unveiling as a blessing rather than a curse. The Nine of Cups is emotional fulfillment — but only when what feeds off your life force has been truly seen and released. In the New Earth path, the parasite is not just physical; it is an old Earth program lodged in desire, attachment, and subtle comfort zones. The fulfillment you seek comes from naming the worm and consciously choosing what nourishes the soul over what satisfies the habit.
2. How can I best work with the fire of transformation without burning out my body?
→ Where is the fine line between sacred purification and self-punishment?
Card: Eight of Pentacles
This is the craftsman’s card — steady, disciplined, and intentional. In the parasite cleanse, as in the New Earth path, the fire works best when it is applied consistently rather than recklessly. This is about refining your practice — whether in breathwork, cleansing, or spiritual service — so that transformation is sustainable. Mastery is built one intentional act at a time, not in frantic bursts that exhaust the body.
3. What guidance does the Lionsgate portal energy offer for my own New Earth service?
→ Which aspect of my work is ready to expand into a higher field of impact?
Card: Queen of Wands
The Queen of Wands calls you into unapologetic radiance. Lionsgate opened the channel for you to be seen not just as a facilitator, but as a leader whose frequency magnetises others into the New Earth field. The parasite cleanse, your teachings, and your presence are not niche — they are medicine for a wider audience. This card invites you to hold both the mystic’s depth and the leader’s visibility.
4. How can I improve the way participants access and integrate the cleanse materials?
→ What shift in guidance or structure will allow them to walk with more ease?
Card: Nine of Wands
This shows the importance of resilience in your systems. Participants are at their most vulnerable during the parasite cleanse — and the smallest barrier can feel like a wall. The Nine of Wands urges you to create structures that anticipate fatigue, doubt, and confusion. Make each step clear, accessible, and repeatable so they don’t have to fight to stay in the field. You’ve done the hard battle; now you can make the path lighter for them.
5. What is the true role of the Certificates of Planetary Service in the New Earth vision?
→ How can they hold the frequency of recognition and spiritual authority?
Card: Nine of Pentacles
This is the energy of self-mastery and earned abundance. The certificate is not just proof of completion — it is a seal of spiritual independence. In the New Earth context, it says: “I have walked through the fire, released the parasite, and now stand sovereign.” It becomes both a personal reminder and a public testament of service to the planet.
6. What does the stillness of “no new participants” want me to understand?
→ How can I embody trust in divine timing while keeping the field alive?
Card: Page of Swords
The Page of Swords asks for curiosity rather than anxiety. The pause in new arrivals is not a void — it is a listening space. Use it to refine your message, respond to the needs of those already in the cleanse, and explore new ways of speaking about parasites and the New Earth so that the right people recognise themselves in your words. Observation now seeds future momentum.
7. What is the next revelation my book is ready to carry into the collective?
→ Which hidden or uncomfortable truth about parasites and the Old Earth must now be voiced?
Card: Death/Rebirth
This is the heart of your work — showing that the parasite cleanse is not just about expelling the old, but allowing the self to die into something entirely new. Death/Rebirth says the book must speak directly to the fear of endings. It must reveal that the death of the parasite is the rebirth of sovereignty, and that the New Earth is born every time one person chooses to transform rather than decay.
