I woke up without an alarm around quarter to five.
In the night, I had a wet dream — something from the deep subconscious. I haven’t touched myself or climaxed in many months, and I don’t watch anything explicit anymore, not for a long time. But the dream still found its way. Some kind of self-experience, symbolic, strange — and I woke halfway through resisting it.
Got up, went to the bathroom half-asleep, and found around ten red ants in the sink and toilet. I flushed them, annoyed. Felt emotionally jolted by it — and then I remembered Opul had just plugged the hole behind the toilet. But clearly not fully. They were seeking another exit.
I caught myself getting into the story in my head — already imagining arguments, landlord-tenant tensions, frustration. Duality. So I went to meditate.
The thoughts were looping — what to say, how to react. Until a space opened within, and I felt my higher self step in. A reminder:
You are here to be tested — not to react, but to remain sovereign.
You carry illusions with you from room to room, from yesterday to today.
You do not have to.
Release it. You are not the identity you’ve held.
You are here to walk differently — to co-create the new earth.
Let go of what you thought you were.
And so I transmuted it.
Every time that story tried to return, the voice came again:
“You are the bringer of truth. Co-Creator of The New Earth, A huge vessel of divine love. Here to serve Humanity to transcend consciousness.”
Not as something grandiose — but as something committed. Quiet. Clear.
This is what I am here for. And it’s not supposed to be easy. That’s not the point. I’ve chosen this, I’ve been entrusted with it.
So — I go forward today with appreciation. No complaints. Just reverence.
Chip away at the projects gifted by the divine.
Let the divine move through this very human vessel.
Morning Reflection – 7th July
🔥 What’s the one thing I want to give energy to and progress even a little bit today?
To chip away at the projects I’ve been entrusted with — video edits, the book, the foundation. Keep moving.
🧹 What am I releasing today?
The old narrative of reacting, carrying stories, or allowing discomfort to override presence. The idea that I am behind, or broken, or defined by the past.
👑 Who do I choose to be today?
A clear vessel. A bringer of truth. The one who remembers — even when it’s hard — that this path is not mine alone. I walk it with the divine.
7th July – Tarot Reflection Prompts
1. What part of me still believes that validation must come externally — and can I bless it, then walk anyway?
→ The Hermit
This part believes that recognition confirms your value — but The Hermit reminds you: truth doesn’t require an audience. You already know the path. Your inner light is the lamp now. Walk anyway. Let silence be your sanctuary, not a punishment.
2. Where do I confuse solitude with loneliness — and how can I shift into sacred aloneness?
→ 6 of Pentacles
When giving isn’t met with balanced receiving, it feels like lack — like loneliness. But this card asks: can you receive from Source itself? The divine is always giving. Shift from scarcity into sacred reciprocity. You’re never alone when giving and receiving are balanced within.
3. What am I still holding onto from a version of life I’ve outgrown — and what grief remains in letting it go?
→ 9 of Swords
You’re still haunted by echoes of the past — words left unsaid, love left unreplied, the ache of being unseen. Let the grief be honoured, not suppressed. You outgrew the room. The door shut behind you. Breathe now. Let it all go.
4. What does planetary service feel like when no one is watching, clapping, or paying?
→ 10 of Wands
It feels like burden and blessing intertwined. Heavy because it matters. Weighty because it’s sacred. This is the quiet labour of love — when no one sees you, but the Earth does. Your back aches because you’re carrying light.
5. How can I receive the small signs — the horse, the presence of a friend — as reminders that I’m not alone?
→ 5 of Swords
The mind wants to win, to analyse. But the signs aren’t trophies — they’re whispers. If you look for them through the lens of ego or expectation, you’ll miss them. So soften. Don’t argue with grace. Let it come gently, even if it doesn’t make sense.
6. What in me is willing to walk without proof — and what part still craves reassurance before it moves?
→ 4 of Pentacles
The part that holds tight. To comfort. To safety. To what it knows. And yet — beyond the grip lies freedom. You are willing… but still cautious. That’s okay. Just don’t let fear build a fortress. Let trust loosen your fingers, one choice at a time.
7. What would it mean to trust that this path — even when hard, quiet, and unseen — is sacred beyond measure?
→ The Chariot
It means you keep going. Aligned. Determined. Not pushed, not pulled — but driven by the divine from within. This path doesn’t need proof. The wheels move because your soul said yes. Trust the direction. Let it carry you home.
