Scarcity, Service, and the Eye of the Needle 28th Journal (written 29th Aug morning)
Heavy Energy of MoneyToday felt like a struggle. The Old Earth weight of finances pressed on me. I tried to sort through accounts, only to realize the bank had delayed my request until August 6th — meaning 45 days from then. The release date now sits exactly when my visa ends. Fear rose: are they […]
Tears, Illusions, and Trusting the Stripping of Pluto – Another day uncovering The New Earth Within – Tarot pull (27th Journal and 28th Aug morning reflection)
—28th August morning reflection— The Heavy MorningI woke heavy today. Thoughts leaping, tears rising. My lower back still twinges. I journaled through tears — speaking loss into being. I had such an opportunity once: a family, a community. I couldn’t fully appreciate it, and now it’s gone. The grief comes in waves. Sometimes I handle […]
Porcupine Needles, Vulnerability, and the Weight of Preparation 27th August Journal
Bodywork and Primal ReactionsThe morning began at the Bhakti Yoga retreat with breathing, followed by an hour of deep massage — more like initiation through pain. It felt as though a porcupine needle rose from the base of my spine, sparking a serpent-like reaction from my mouth. My nervous system responded primally, as if something […]
Dreams, Illusions, and the Letting Go of Legacy August 27th Journal
Dreams of Pursuit and ChaosThe night carried wild dreams. I was in a water pistol fight with people from the Old Earth, chasing and losing what I had just found. Rooms turned eerie, protectors turned pursuers, and even planes became stages of sabotage and collapse. Death, survival, déjà vu — all tangled together. These dreams […]
Chaos, Sacred Work, and the Flow of Integrity 26th August Journal
The Morning RushThe day began in a hurry. I was behind schedule, rushing to breathing practice. Just as I pressed forward, the universe slowed me — a train crossing, traffic blocked by police, even someone laid out on the road. Chaos all around. Rather than sit still, I darted through and carried on, only a […]
Nervous System, Higher Signals, and Trusting the Process 26th August
Work and RefinementThe day carried a quiet steadiness. I began editing Kayla’s testimonial — long, beautiful, and full of depth into her journey. It reminded me why this work matters. Afterward, I went to the gym and faced a tough workout — the kind that pushes strength to its edge. Lift More lived up to […]
Nervous System, Higher Signals, and Trusting the Process 25th August
Work and RefinementThe day carried a quiet steadiness. I began editing Kayla’s testimonial — long, beautiful, and full of depth into her journey. It reminded me why this work matters. Afterward, I went to the gym and faced a tough workout — the kind that pushes strength to its edge. Lift More lived up to […]
Bells, Prayers, and the Quiet Work of the New Earth (Tarot based on yesterday and today’s morning reflection 25th Aug)
Light Activation and Higher GlimpsesYesterday I joined a light activation with Annalies and eight women on the call. I simply lay down as the music played — music that reminded me of the Old Earth, even triggering memories of Alexia Tulum, who I once invited into my home to play. Strangely, none of it unsettled […]
Long Journeys, Restless Energy, and Seeds of Patience 24th August
The Train RideThe day began on the train, and to my surprise, it was pleasant. I leaned into podcasts — first the Sean Reiner show with Chris, the ex-SAS soldier, then an episode with AJ Gentile. One long journey flowed into the next, stories of discipline and challenge pulling me back to the thought: when […]
From Broken Sleep to First-Class Flow: Dreams, Travel, and the Call to Speak -(Tarot pull based on yesterday’s journal and 24th August morning relfection)
The Broken NightSleep fractured again. The aircon and fan kept cutting out, forcing me to stumble around the room in the dark, trying to fix it. I finally gave in, lay sweating, and drifted back into a haze. Dreams came — vivid, strange. My father was suddenly building up his business, successful, even appearing on […]