Heavy Energy of Money
Today felt like a struggle. The Old Earth weight of finances pressed on me. I tried to sort through accounts, only to realize the bank had delayed my request until August 6th — meaning 45 days from then. The release date now sits exactly when my visa ends. Fear rose: are they holding my money?
This money is my lifeline, the one stream I chose to keep. It shook me — the thought of it being out of reach, even as I turned away from Old Earth abundance before. I reminded myself of the Divine. Timing is sacred, even when the waiting feels unbearable.
Scarcity and the Mind
Scarcity has a strange way of changing people. I’ve seen it in the Old Earth — generosity turns to fear, connection turns to survival. Even Annalie, on our team call, confessed her fear of being scammed when she couldn’t reach Rhoda. Scarcity makes us doubt, makes us question what is real.
I caught myself in it too: waiting for replies, wanting closure in conversations, overthinking when messages remain unanswered. Open loops stir unease. But I know the truth: these loops are part of the suppression of SHILT — and sharing them removes their power.
Moments of Service
Amid the heaviness, grace appeared. I met Margoux after breathing practice. She was trapped in her old job, yearning for freedom but afraid to move. I shared the SAD Triangle with her, explained the SHM, the New Earth. She began writing her resignation letter right there.
Her words: “This is why I met you.”
Moments like that remind me of my purpose. I forget sometimes, caught in my own storms. But seeing someone lighten, shift, and choose — it restored me. Service is the medicine.
The Why-Files and Perception
Later, I watched more Why-Files. Trippy stories, facts, and figures — all of them making me question what’s real. Maybe nothing is real but projection. Maybe truth is not in the content but in the consciousness that perceives it.
I ended the night with meditation, feeling tired, but grateful. The needle of scarcity still presses, but I can see the greater pattern. This is the training ground — to pass through the eye without breaking.
Closing Note
Money fears, scarcity patterns, service, and strange perceptions — all of it belongs to the path. The New Earth is not freedom from challenge, but freedom through it.
When scarcity whispers, the SHM answers: sovereignty, truth, service.
