—From Limbo to Strength: Returning to the Path of the New Earth—
Dream Fragments
The night carried me back to old work patterns — recruitment calls, the dread of speaking to clients, the echo of a life I thought I had left behind. Then came the book: published, narrated in Tom Hanks’ voice, yet not well received. My father was there, and I felt both joy at his presence and conflict at the thought of truths written about him inside the book.
Later, a sexual dream blurred the edges of reality. I woke unsure of where the line between dream and body was. All of it felt like fragments of old identities — past lives stirring before departure.
Reflections on Yesterday
Yesterday was hard. I was too harsh on myself, lost in distraction, heavy with doubt. It was a reminder of how quickly limbo can pull me away from purpose when I forget why I’m here. I realized: every time I sink into distraction, I move further from the one truth — that I am here to co-create the New Earth.
But today feels stronger. Human moments will come. The key is to meet them, release them, and keep moving forward.
Willpower and Rhythm
Morning practices re-centered me. What I need most is a rhythm: discipline in the morning to set the direction, and constructive ways to release in the evening so I don’t fall into escapism. This is how I protect my energy, how I stay aligned with the work that matters.
Looking Ahead
Tomorrow, I leave on my short trip. Today is preparation: snacks, food, readiness. I’ll breathe with Nazir this morning, soak in the strength of practice, and enjoy our conversations. I’ll check in with Shika and the Sacred Store, then return to the book and the projects that await refinement.
Yesterday’s excess of films and TV left me sickened, uninterested. Perhaps that was the medicine: to strip the desire away, leaving no pull back into that cycle.
This is where I stand now — not lost, but renewed. Stronger again.
—Tarot Spread—
1. Presence — The Magician reversed
Main question: How can I stay present when distraction tempts me away from my path?
Answer: The Magician reversed shows that distraction arises when your energy is scattered, when you forget you already have the tools to stay present. The temptation isn’t a lack of ability, but a misdirection of will. Presence returns when you stop trying to “perform” and instead simplify.
Sub-question: What daily anchor helps me return to focus when I drift?
Answer: A single, grounding ritual — one chosen practice, repeated daily — becomes your anchor. Don’t chase many tools. Return to one: breath, journaling, or movement. That becomes the tether back to presence.
2. Identity — The High Priestess
Main question: What old patterns are resurfacing that make me feel “lazy” or unworthy?
Answer: The High Priestess reveals that these patterns are illusions rising from the unconscious. They are not laziness — they are old judgments, surfacing for release. You are being asked to listen inwardly, not outwardly, for truth.
Sub-question: How can I meet these patterns with compassion rather than judgment?
Answer: By sitting with them silently, as the Priestess does, allowing them to be seen without reacting. Compassion comes from awareness, not analysis. Witness your own shadow and let it soften, rather than fighting it.
3. Purpose — Ten of Swords
Main question: What does it mean to serve the New Earth when I feel pointless?
Answer: The Ten of Swords is the death of old cycles. Feeling pointless means the old self — the worker who measures worth by output — is dying. Service to the New Earth begins when you release that identity and rise with a new sense of meaning.
Sub-question: Where can I offer service today, even in a small way?
Answer: Through presence with others — a kind word, holding space, sharing your reflection. Service doesn’t always need productivity; sometimes it’s about embodying the frequency of care.
4. Space — Four of Cups
Main question: Why does space sometimes feel like abandonment instead of freedom?
Answer: The Four of Cups shows the tendency to miss the gift being offered. Space feels empty because you focus on what is absent, not what is present. In truth, space is a sacred offering of freedom, if you can shift your gaze.
Sub-question: How can I reframe solitude as a gift instead of a loss?
Answer: See solitude as the chalice being handed to you — an invitation to refill yourself. By treating quiet as nourishment, you transform it into empowerment rather than absence.
5. Seeds — Death & Rebirth
Main question: What seeds am I planting in moments of escape and avoidance?
Answer: Death & Rebirth shows that avoidance plants seeds of endings — the decay of what no longer serves. Even distraction is a signal that something must die so something else can be born.
Sub-question: How can I consciously sow seeds of creativity and service instead?
Answer: By letting go of what is expired and choosing one new action aligned with your vision. Transformation is not about forcing growth but about making space for new seeds to take root.
6. Trust — The World reversed
Main question: Can I trust that this limbo is part of the passage, not the end?
Answer: The World reversed affirms that you are between cycles. Limbo is not failure, but an unfinished chapter. Trust that the pause is gestation — you are not at the end, only awaiting the next spiral.
Sub-question: What signs remind me that even in stillness, the path is unfolding?
Answer: Small synchronicities — animals, symbols, dreams — are your reminders. They show that even if the “completion” hasn’t arrived, life is still moving you toward wholeness.
7. Renewal — The Chariot
Main question: How can I transform feelings of drift into fertile ground for growth?
Answer: The Chariot shows that renewal comes through choosing direction. Drift transforms when you reclaim the reins of willpower. Discipline and movement — even small, intentional actions — create momentum.
Sub-question: What one small action today realigns me with my greater vision?
Answer: Take one decisive step toward your creative work — a page written, a PDF refined, a seed planted. The Chariot reminds you: growth comes from movement, not from waiting for perfect readiness.
