The Early Wake
I stirred at 3:30 a.m., mind restless, knowing I had set the alarm for 4. Should I get up now? Should I wait? Finally, when the alarm rang, I rose straight away. Morning practices called me, and they reminded me again of a truth I too often forget: early rising is my sweet spot. When I start before the world, I feel ahead. When I sleep in, I chase the day.
This trip has reminded me — getting up early is discipline, and discipline is freedom.
Dogs and Distractions
As I gathered myself and packed, the neighbor’s dog was let loose. He leapt on me, muddy paws everywhere, while I tried to deal with the driver. My patience cracked. I stroked him, told him to calm down, but also wanted him gone. It repeated again and again — chaos at the edge of departure.
Sometimes the Old Earth tests us like this: small irritations that mirror the larger inner storm.
Niacin and Movement
Before the flight, I took niacin to flush toxins and went for a jog to find the driver. Exercise, even brief, amplifies the flush. Soon the car was packed, and I stretched out in the back seat, catching moments of rest as the road carried us to the airport.
The Grace of an Upgrade
At security, I glanced at the signs: Business Class. I thought to myself — maybe I could slip through, though I wasn’t sure my premium economy counted. But when the ticket was scanned, the answer appeared: I had been upgraded.
Business class, without asking. Grace, without effort. A gift from the Divine.
I smiled, wondering if this was comfort sent ahead of the discomfort still to come. Either way, I received it with gratitude.
Souvenirs and Gestures
Inside the airport, I bought souvenirs for those I would meet, and even small gifts for the airline crew — tokens of appreciation. Giving is a way of saying thank you for carrying me.
Colombo airport surprised me with its quality. It felt closer to Dubai’s polished ease than I had expected. Walking through, I realized how far I had come. After months of jungle life, I felt almost feral in these polished halls.
Old Earth Threads
I messaged someone from the Old Earth. No reply yet. That’s okay. Heightened emotions come and go, and the truth is: all unfolds as it must.
Closing Note
Today began with restlessness and dogs, niacin and mud, but it led me here — to gratitude, to presence, to an unexpected upgrade.
The New Earth teaches me: discipline opens the day, surrender shapes the path, and gratitude carries me through whatever comes.
—Tarot pull—
1. Ten of Pentacles
Main Question: How do I carry the vision of lasting abundance and legacy into the New Earth?
Sub-Question: Where is true wealth already present, even amidst Old Earth uncertainty?
Answer: The Ten of Pentacles shows that your wealth is not locked in banks or tied to closing companies — it is already alive in the community meals, the SHM light you’ve reclaimed, and the family you build around fire, temple, and truth. True legacy is not about what you fear losing; it’s about what you continually seed through service, presence, and devotion. Even now, you are weaving a structure that outlasts scarcity.
2. Five of Wands
Main Question: What are the conflicts and irritations of daily life revealing to me?
Sub-Question: How do I transform them into fuel for growth rather than distraction?
Answer: The barking dogs, financial delays, and restless emotions mirror the Five of Wands — scattered energy, testing friction. These challenges aren’t blockages; they are practice rounds. They sharpen your patience, your discipline, your ability to stay centered even as the Old Earth kicks up noise. Each irritation is an initiation — not a derailment, but a test of sovereignty.
3. The Lovers
Main Question: What choices am I being asked to make in love and alignment?
Sub-Question: Where am I still caught between attachment and truth?
Answer: The Lovers reflects your tension with Maya — the longing to message her, the fear of rejection, and the pull to simply send love. The card asks for choice: not one of fear, but of integrity. Alignment is found not in whether she responds, but in how you speak truth without attachment. Love, in its New Earth form, is sovereign, not bargaining for return.
4. Three of Wands
Main Question: How do I step forward with vision into what is next?
Sub-Question: What horizon is opening that requires me to trust the unknown?
Answer: The Three of Wands confirms that your departure — the flights, the moves, the uncertainty — is not chaos but expansion. Horizons are opening. You don’t need every detail resolved. What matters is stepping out, holding vision, and trusting that the path will meet you as you move. The Old Earth may feel unfinished, but the New Earth is already rising ahead.
5. Temperance
Main Question: How do I integrate extremes into harmony on this path?
Sub-Question: Where am I asked to find balance between discipline and surrender?
Answer: Temperance appears in your niacin flush, your early rising, your meditations paired with restless nights. The teaching: don’t reject either side. The chaos and the discipline, the irritation and the grace, they both belong. The New Earth is not about erasing polarity, but blending it into balance — a rhythm where discomfort and blessing weave the same thread.
6. Six of Cups
Main Question: What role does memory and innocence play in guiding me now?
Sub-Question: How do I allow the childlike heart to soften the weight of responsibility?
Answer: The Six of Cups reminds you of the firefly moment at the Hoo Temple — innocence naming what is sacred. It also speaks to your dreams of Maya, where love was simple, even when teeth were missing. These memories are not traps; they are teachers. Innocence softens you. It shows that healing is not only discipline, but remembering tenderness. The New Earth is built not on carrying weight alone, but on letting innocence guide.
7. Ace of Wands
Main Question: What new spark of purpose is ready to ignite in me?
Sub-Question: How do I channel it into action rather than let it fade into thought?
Answer: The Ace of Wands rises as you travel, as you blog, as you sit with SHM and refine your prayers. A new flame is here — the urge to speak, to share, to create. This isn’t abstract. It asks for action: filming the pilot episode, writing the book, giving voice to what you’ve been circling. The spark is already alive. The question is only whether you let it burn.
