Arrival in South Africa
It has been the longest time since I’ve written a blog — for good reason. I’ve just landed in Karoo, South Africa, after Dubai, and it has been a whirlwind.
Since arriving, I’ve been embraced by Rhoda and Zelkhia — two extraordinary medicine women who have been walking realms and dimensions long before they became popular online. They are family now. I feel adopted, I feel at home. They see me for who I am, and I feel truly seen.
Clearing and Preparation
They began with filaments — natural, different from the medicines. Each day included enemas. Then, the day after I arrived, we did a liver cleanse to prepare my body for Iboga.
Another medicine followed — one that clears the way for Iboga to work. It absorbed heaviness and exhaustion from deep within me. Rhoda sensed the ancient tiredness I have carried my whole life, ancestral weight. She told me she was surprised I could rise each morning with such discipline while carrying that burden.
That night, Zelkhia purged on my behalf while I slept. These women are remarkable, willing to hold the energies moving through me. Even Zelkhia’s mother gave me her little cottage, saying she saw me as an angel who needed to stay, not wander.
The Call of Iboga
When they felt I was ready, they said: “Let’s do Iboga. The medicine wants to work with you now.”
I prepared with sauna and flush, then took Iboga in tablet form — a very strong dose. At first, I read, then drifted quickly into sleep. I woke fragile, but not anxious, as I had been with my first experience. I knew what to expect — and also that I didn’t.
The golden thread appeared, eyes fluttering, pulling me down like glue: stay down, see what you need to see.
Revelations of Pain and Abandonment
Memories surfaced — childhood pain, the sense of being forgotten. I saw how I’ve created situations in my adult life that reenact that wound: being in pain, feeling unseen, reaching out as if to say, don’t forget me.
Abandonment. Loss. Still searching for my mother. And here, I realized: Rhoda is my cosmic mother. Without knowing, I’ve been searching for that all along.
I saw dishonour in how I’ve lived out of fear, the pain I’ve caused, the ways I clung to Old Earth attachments — especially money. Iboga pulled it all to the surface, forcing me to look. My heart cracked open. I couldn’t see that realm anymore.
The Purge and Release
The next day, thoughts still swirled. Heaviness, suicidal shadows, resentment — all surfacing. But after another flush, everything shifted. It was as if the medicine had held those thoughts, those patterns, until the purge could clear them from my body. Suddenly, the hooks were gone. My mind was clear.
I realized how much the gut holds — parasites, stagnation, the weight of thought itself. When I was a boy, I had a pot belly — a sign of parasites. I see now how much of my life has been shaped by this hidden burden.
Family and Future
Now, it is Wednesday. And I know: we are to build something together. Rhoda and Zelkhia already have their company, Leonardos. They have the structure. They’ve been waiting for me to arrive to help manifest it into reality.
Together we will create a healing center, a place where we live, hold space, educate children, welcome people from around the world, offer medicine and guidance, and nurture genius. A sanctuary of community and light.
For me, this is landing. This is home. I don’t want to go back to Sri Lanka. There is no home there. Here, I am family. Here, I am seen.
Closing Reflection
What I realize now is how long I have suffered — how good I’ve become at pretending I was okay, when I wasn’t.
Here, with them, the mask has dropped. The suffering surfaced, and was met. And now, I am blessed, appreciated, loved, and finally… home.
Perfect — thank you for sharing your pulls. I’ll keep each main question + sub-question intact, and weave the cards directly into the unfolding of your Arrival in South Africa journey.
1. Arrival and Belonging — Four of Wands
Q: What is the deeper meaning of finding family and being truly seen in this land?
A: The Four of Wands is homecoming and celebration. Your arrival is not just relocation — it is recognition, a soul-family reunion. It marks the crossing of a threshold into a space where you are no longer a guest, but kin.
Sub-Q: How do I root into this sense of belonging without fear of losing it?
A: By fully celebrating it. The Four of Wands says: don’t wait for the other shoe to drop. Anchor by gratitude, rituals, and presence. Belonging is not fragile — it is foundation.
2. Ancient Tiredness — Six of Swords
Q: What is the purpose of carrying such ancestral heaviness for so long?
A: The Six of Swords is passage. The weight you’ve carried was part of your crossing — it brought you to the riverbank where the ferryman awaits. Its purpose was to push you toward transition, even when painful.
Sub-Q: How is this weight now transforming through discipline and medicine?
A: Each practice — breath, flush, discipline — is an oar moving you from storm to calmer waters. The Six says the heaviness is no longer permanent; it is being ferried away.
3. The Call of Iboga — Temperance
Q: What truth is Iboga asking me to face at this stage of my journey?
A: Temperance speaks of alchemy and balance. Iboga asks you to see how your extremes — fear and courage, attachment and release — can be transmuted. The truth: you are the vessel where opposites meet to form wholeness.
Sub-Q: How do I surrender more fully to what the golden thread wants me to see?
A: By trusting the slow mixing process. Temperance invites patience: let the medicine blend shadow and light, past and future, without rushing to resolve.
4. Childhood Wounds — Nine of Pentacles
Q: How do the memories of abandonment and being forgotten still shape my life today?
A: The Nine of Pentacles shows independence and self-reliance. Your wounds shaped you into someone who learned to stand alone, to master survival. But this independence also carries loneliness — the shadow of “I must do it all myself.”
Sub-Q: What new story becomes possible when I release the need to reenact those wounds?
A: The Nine promises a harvest: true self-sufficiency that is not isolation, but empowered sovereignty. The new story is: I am whole, and from wholeness I can connect without fear.
5. Purge and Release — Death / Rebirth
Q: What is being cleared from me in these purges — body, mind, and spirit?
A: Death / Rebirth is total transformation. The purge is stripping lifetimes of stagnation: parasites, old thought-loops, ancestral heaviness. What is cleared is the shell of who you were, making space for who you are becoming.
Sub-Q: How can I honor the medicine’s gift by living differently in the days ahead?
A: By walking in Rebirth, not clinging to Death. Honor the medicine by refusing to pick up what was stripped away. Step each day as the new self, not the old.
6. Family and Future Creation — The Hierophant (Reversed)
Q: What role am I meant to play in co-creating this healing center with Rhoda and Zelkhia?
A: The Hierophant reversed shows you are not here to build tradition as it has been done before. Your role is to break molds, to challenge rigid systems, to create a sanctuary that lives outside the old rules. You are the bridge between form and freedom.
Sub-Q: How do I balance vision and service so that this sanctuary serves generations to come?
A: By staying true to authenticity rather than dogma. The reversal reminds you: don’t replicate old hierarchies. Balance vision and service by letting the community itself be the teacher, not authority.
7. Dropping the Mask — Knight of Wands
Q: What truth emerges now that the mask of “I’m okay” has fallen away?
A: The Knight of Wands is raw, passionate fire. The truth is: beneath the mask is vitality, boldness, and a wild heart that wants to ride free. You are not broken — you are ablaze.
Sub-Q: How do I continue to live in raw honesty rather than slipping back into pretense?
A: By riding the fire forward. The Knight doesn’t look back or slow down for appearances. Living in honesty means choosing passion over performance, truth over polish, every time.
✨ This spread flows like a ceremony:
- Four of Wands + Six of Swords → homecoming after a long crossing.
- Temperance + Nine of Pentacles → integration of extremes, honoring self-sovereignty.
- Death/Rebirth + Hierophant reversed → the purge makes way for a new form of sanctuary beyond tradition.
- Knight of Wands → the unmasked self rides forward with fire.
With love and honour
The New Earth
