Work and Refinement
The day carried a quiet steadiness. I began editing Kayla’s testimonial — long, beautiful, and full of depth into her journey. It reminded me why this work matters. Afterward, I went to the gym and faced a tough workout — the kind that pushes strength to its edge. Lift More lived up to its name.
Later, I met with Sheikha to discuss the Sacred Store — what to order, what to refine. Research on oils revealed more nuances about the intestinal lining, meaning another round of updates to the PDFs and videos. It feels tiring at times, but this is the work of integrity: holding everything to the highest standard.
Money and the Weight of Waiting
The $5,000 transfer still hasn’t landed — eight days and counting. It pulls at me. I reflect: money buys time, but time for what? To work, to serve, to be? The whole structure feels strange, like chasing shadows. I remind myself not to collapse into worry.
I lit candles, extending the Sanctuary for another month on a pay-monthly plan, giving space for things to unfold. Slowly, piece by piece, things are coming together — testimonials, websites, the weaving of presence.
Strange Stories and Signals
I listened to a podcast about out-of-body experiences and government spy work, stories of being used beyond the physical. It triggered a thought: trapped in the body, we are bound by physics. Step outside, and we’re free of those laws. It’s not unlike lucid dreaming — reality shifts, perception becomes porous.
This idea lingers: my nervous system has been through shingles, herpes, and mumps. All initiations, all purifications. Perhaps it’s being prepared for something beyond this world, something that defies logic. I’ve had glimpses before — signals that whatever is coming is not of this Earth.
Connection and Continuity
I spoke to Penn, touched the book again, grateful for the steady companionship of those who walk with me. There was no rush, no collapse into frustration. Just moving, slowly but surely, calming the nervous system, trusting the unfolding.
Closing Note
I feel detached from worldly attachments. I’m not chasing. I’m not looking for comfort. I am seeking only truth, and the Divine order that underpins all things.
Whatever is coming — whether from within or beyond — my nervous system is being readied for it. And all I can do is continue, in presence, integrity, and trust.
—Tarot pull—
1. Knight of Swords
Main Question: How do I carry the weight of refinement and integrity without burning out?
Sub-Question: Where am I mistaking heaviness for responsibility instead of alignment?
Answer (Knight of Swords):
You’ve been in motion — editing testimonials, updating PDFs, researching oils, refining again and again. The Knight of Swords reflects that fierce drive to push through at speed. But it also warns: the more you equate every detail with responsibility, the heavier it becomes. Alignment is knowing which tasks truly carry forward the mission, and which are distractions disguised as “duty.” Burnout comes when you chase every refinement with urgency. Integrity doesn’t need speed — it needs clarity.
2. Seven of Cups
Main Question: What are these higher signals my nervous system is preparing me for?
Sub-Question: How do I trust the body as both vessel and antenna on the New Earth path?
Answer (Seven of Cups):
Your nervous system has endured — shingles, mumps, herpes — and now you sense it’s being tuned for something beyond. The Seven of Cups mirrors this flood of visions: extraterrestrial contact, out-of-body glimpses, cosmic signs. Many cups, many possibilities, not all rooted. The card invites discernment: some signals are projections, others are preparation. Trust the body by anchoring — breathing, bells, candles — so the nervous system isn’t overwhelmed. It is antenna, yes, but only if grounded in daily practice.
3. Knight of Wands
Main Question: What is being revealed through glimpses of out-of-body possibilities?
Sub-Question: How do I integrate these glimpses without escaping the present?
Answer (Knight of Wands):
Podcasts about spy work and astral travel ignite your fire. The Knight of Wands is the seeker of adventure, charging into the unknown. The glimpses reveal your hunger for freedom from limitations, for living beyond the body’s rules. Integration comes by carrying that fire into form — not escaping into fantasy but channeling it into story, teaching, creation. The Knight says: keep your feet on the ground even as your spirit leaps. This is how you bridge worlds.
4. Eight of Cups
Main Question: How can I give life to the pilot story of Arthur and the New Earth?
Sub-Question: What style of storytelling will best carry the essence of this work?
Answer (Eight of Cups):
The inspiration to craft Season One, Episode One is pure Eight of Cups energy — leaving behind the old way of holding your story, and daring to tell it in a new vessel. Arthur’s journey is your departure from perfectionism into raw expression. Style? It will be born from the act of stepping away from the old containers (structured teaching, linear logic) and into playful myth, rhythm, and vision. The Eight of Cups says: begin, and the path of style will appear as you walk.
5. The World
Main Question: With so many projects alive, where should I place my focus now?
Sub-Question: Which seed carries the greatest potential to sprout first?
Answer (The World):
Book, Sacred Store, pilot, community — all these threads belong to the same circle. The World tells you it’s not about picking one seed in isolation; each is a piece of the whole. The project with the greatest potential is the one that weaves into the others. The pilot births the story that feeds the book, that flows into the store, that draws the community. See the spiral, not the fragments. The World says: wholeness is your focus.
6. Ten of Cups
Main Question: What does it mean to speak my truth more boldly in this season?
Sub-Question: Where am I still hiding behind preparation instead of stepping forward?
Answer (Ten of Cups):
Speaking your truth boldly doesn’t fracture the circle — it completes it. The Ten of Cups is harmony, connection, the shared rainbow of community. Your fear of abandonment dissolves here: your truth doesn’t scatter, it gathers. Preparation can be a shield, but the Ten of Cups reminds you — what you share brings fulfillment not just to you, but to your people. Joy comes from honesty spoken aloud. It’s time to step out from behind preparation and let the family of resonance gather.
7. Ace of Pentacles
Main Question: How do I balance daily practices with visionary expansion?
Sub-Question: What rhythm allows me to ground inspiration without losing presence?
Answer (Ace of Pentacles):
The Ace of Pentacles is the seed. Your brass bell, your altar, your breathing — these are the soil. Every visionary leap must be planted in small daily acts. The card says: don’t underestimate the power of consistency. One candle lit, one word written, one truth spoken each day is enough. Balance comes by anchoring vision in matter, by letting each seed of practice be the beginning of harvest. Vision without soil scatters. Vision with rhythm grows.
✨ Closing Thread:
Your two-day arc (25th + 26th) was about weight and fire, nervous system and vision, grounding and expansion. The spread shows a clear pattern: your practices (Ace of Pentacles) are what allow you to carry integrity (Knight of Swords), channel glimpses (Knight of Wands), and birth stories (Eight of Cups). The World and Ten of Cups affirm: you don’t need to choose between projects or people. Truth spoken boldly will gather your circle, and each thread will find its place in the wholeness.
