The Broken Night
Sleep fractured again. The aircon and fan kept cutting out, forcing me to stumble around the room in the dark, trying to fix it. I finally gave in, lay sweating, and drifted back into a haze.
Dreams came — vivid, strange. My father was suddenly building up his business, successful, even appearing on TV. He spoke with confidence, even in Indian, which stunned me. I saw my older brother there, too. In the dream I felt conflicted: I was preparing to publish my book, a book that might be damning for him. He had so much to lose. Should I tell my brother? Should I hold back?
It struck me — in past dreams my father has been gone. Now he appears alive, building, confident. A different mirror.
The Departure
The alarm rang at 5 a.m. I moved in a fog, packing, riding the scooter to drop it at another hotel. My phone hadn’t charged properly overnight, so I plugged it in wherever I could, making do. At the station, to my surprise, first-class tickets were available.
What a difference. Aircon, reclining seats, space. A thousand percent better than the journey here. The contrast was almost comic. Luxury, right when I wasn’t expecting it.
The Voices Around Me
As I write this from the train, I put a video on YouTube of a former SAS soldier named Chris sharing stories of his life. It stirs a memory — as a child, I too dreamed of being an SAS soldier, trained, disciplined, unstoppable. A different version of me.
Now, I’m on a different battlefield — one of spirit, word, and truth.
Looking Forward
I feel tired, but beneath it, a surge of clarity. The book is calling. The time is near to speak, to let the words reach others, no matter the consequences. My father, my family, my old life — they will all have to stand as they are.
The New Earth asks for truth. And I will bring it.
—Tarot pull—
1. Discipline in Transition — Ten of Wands
Main question: How do I carry my disciplines even when environments and routines dissolve?
Sub-question: What practices keep me rooted when I step away from my usual structures?
The Ten of Wands shows that carrying discipline right now feels heavy, like a burden on your back. But this card also reminds us: the weight comes not from the practices themselves, but from trying to carry them without flow. The shift is to streamline — to keep only what matters, the “essential disciplines” that root you wherever you go. This isn’t about doing everything; it’s about doing the few things that keep your spine straight when the ground shifts.
2. Flow vs. Resistance — The Empress
Main question: How can I slow down when the inner pace feels like I’m running out of time?
Sub-question: What helps me shift from rushing through life to simply being present?
The Empress offers the antidote to rushing: creation through presence, not force. She invites you into nature’s rhythm — cycles, seasons, patience. To move from urgency into flow, the Empress says: nourish yourself, root in the body, allow beauty and slowness. When you rush, it’s fear speaking. When you embody presence, creation happens in its right timing.
3. Illusions & Integrity — Five of Wands
Main question: What do I learn when I see through the illusions of “magic pills” or quick fixes?
Sub-question: How do I stay in integrity when others are acting from survival energy?
The Five of Wands reflects the noise and conflict of survival energy — everyone scrambling, selling, convincing. This card shows you’re learning to see these struggles for what they are: training grounds. Integrity doesn’t come from winning the fight, but from stepping back, refusing to join the scramble. You learn by contrast — their noise shows you your path of certainty.
4. Family & Legacy — Three of Pentacles
Main question: What do my dreams of family success and conflict reveal about my own path?
Sub-question: How do I honor my truth without feeling responsible for protecting or exposing others?
The Three of Pentacles suggests that family is part of your greater architecture — the scaffolding on which you’re building. Your dreams show both admiration and conflict, but this card reminds you: truth is a collaborative construction. You don’t carry the whole structure alone. Honoring your truth doesn’t mean tearing down theirs; it means placing your stone in the cathedral of life with care, trusting others to place theirs.
5. Departure & Letting Go — Page of Pentacles
Main question: How do I walk away from the Old Earth while carrying gratitude for what it gave me?
Sub-question: What must I release now so that the next journey feels lighter?
The Page of Pentacles shows this departure is not about burning bridges, but about beginning again with curiosity. To walk away lightly, approach the New Earth as a student, with fresh eyes. Release the need to prove or defend. Carry gratitude for the old lessons, but step onto the new soil ready to learn, plant, and grow without comparison.
6. Creative Destiny — Two of Wands
Main question: How do I channel clarity into bringing my book and vision of the New Earth forward?
Sub-question: What daily action will turn inspiration into manifestation?
The Two of Wands is the card of vision and planning — standing at the edge of possibility, map in hand. This is the book, the Sacred Store, the vision of the New Earth. The action here: choose one step each day that brings the vision closer into form. Don’t stay in endless mapping; act. Even one page, one edit, one connection builds the bridge from inspiration to manifestation.
7. Fire of Truth — Three of Cups
Main question: How do I speak my truth with courage, no matter the consequences?
Sub-question: What inner fire needs to be trusted and expressed now, without delay?
The Three of Cups reveals that your truth gains strength in community. Speaking courageously isn’t a solitary act — it’s supported, witnessed, celebrated. The inner fire you’re called to trust now is not only your own, but the flame that lights others. This card says: share your truth where it can be held in love, in sacred circles, in aligned communities. From there, it ripples outward.
