Friday, 1st of August
The morning began with finishing edits for the Niacin video, then updating the PDF handout to reflect the right page numbers. I also updated Day 1 and Day 2 to include reminders about Niacin timing. Day 3 is still pending, but I’m taking it slow — balancing this with episodes of my series. No rush.
I’ve also booked an appointment tomorrow to meet someone’s guru — something intriguing about her energy work. Not sure what I’m walking into, but I’m open.
Later, I went to the gym and did legs — brutal. I keep asking myself, “Why am I around metal again?” But there’s a drive to push the body right now. I think it connects me to when I felt most physically alive — my late 20s, during my acting days. I looked back at old footage recently and saw that version of me. If it’s possible, why not return?
This afternoon, I had a hypnotherapy session with Alfrida. We went deep — exploring the tightness in my chest, a pressure to do, and teenage wounds around money. Just as we reached a crucial point, she ended the session abruptly. At first, I wasn’t sure what happened — was it something I did?
I went out on the bike, got coconut yogurt, no eggs. On the way home, something clicked. I whispered to myself,
“I’m not of this world. I’m in this world.”
And in that moment, it truly felt like a dream. Like I’d woken up inside a lucid dream — this whole life, a projection. And I wondered… if I saw someone in a wheelchair, would I have the certainty they could stand? That’s the kind of presence I was in.
Though if I fell of my bike, it would hurt like hell. Then again we can feel pain in a dream, so its all orchestrated in the mind.
Back home, I reached out to Alfrida. I just needed to check in. She shared that in that exact moment, a voice told her:
“Leave him.”
Not out of avoidance — but because what was surfacing in me needed to complete without interference.
That interruption was the healing.
We talked about how divinely orchestrated our connection has been — the kind that probably shouldn’t exist, not in the old world. But this is The New Earth, and new alliances are forming across space and time.
Later, I returned to some emails. One in particular — about ordering 500 enema bags — felt like a real commitment.
If I put that money down… it means I’m not going anywhere.
And maybe that’s exactly what I need to accept.
