––– WAKING THOUGHTS & OLD EARTH ECHOES –––
Woke at 5:15 a.m. with some chatter in my head — a residue from the conversation I’m having later today.
Someone from the Old Earth, someone I never really spoke the full truth to.
Parts of me still feel like they’ve never been heard.
But I also see it now — the whole thing was an illusion.
Whatever happened, I’m not a victim.
I’m only ever a victim to the suppression of my own truth.
And that truth… just wants to be witnessed.
To be breathed out.
So it can integrate.
So it can move on.
––– THE URGE TO WRITE… AND THE REAL WORK –––
I felt the urge to write a letter to the past.
But that just pulls focus from where I am now.
As the Prophet Muhammad said:
“I guarantee a home in paradise for a person who gives up arguments and disputes, even if he is upon the truth.”
It’s not about hammering truth into another.
It’s about learning to synthesize it within myself.
To hold it, to understand it, to transmute it — not project it.
Still, I ask…
At what point is it my responsibility to speak truth when I see illusion?
And when is it not?
Maybe the answer lies in whether I blame — or take full responsibility.
––– REST, UNCERTAINTY & THE PATH AHEAD –––
Yesterday was a true rest day.
Didn’t do much work. Watched, rested, let myself be still.
But now… it’s time.
I might have to leave here in a month.
Dubai is expensive.
Then I’ll need to find a place in South Africa.
Lots of moving pieces.
But I know I’m divinely protected.
Divinely guided.
This is The New Earth path — it unfolds with trust.
––– TODAY’S TASKS & SPIRITUAL FOCUS –––
The first course is up.
The rest is refinement.
Today, I’ll focus on:
- Setting up email threads for new people coming in
- Messaging Kajabi for support
- A few final video edits so they’re off my mind
- My session at 1pm — which will go deep
- A call with Pen
- And chipping away at book edits, reading, anchoring the rhythm
Not everything needs to happen at once.
A little here. A little there. That’s enough.
Reflection
What do I choose to honour?
The stillness before expression.
The space to integrate truth without forcing it.
What do I choose to let go of?
The need to prove anything.
The belief that truth must be defended to be real.
What do I choose to embody today?
The one who holds space.
The one who builds slowly, steadily, truthfully.
So others can walk in. So others can help.
So we can co-create The New Earth.
––– Tarot spread –––
1. What does it mean to hold truth without forcing it onto others?
Can I let my inner clarity be enough — even if they never see it my way?
Card: 7 of Cups
There are so many versions of truth floating in the field — projections, fantasies, what I wish they would see. But clarity doesn’t require persuasion.
The real task is discernment — not trying to convince anyone, just honouring the truth that lives in me.
The moment I try to sell it, I’ve already left myself.
Let them choose their cup. I know what’s in mine.
2. Where have I confused stillness with stagnation — and how can I tell the difference?
Is rest a pause or a hiding place? Am I willing to trust the unseen movement in stillness?
Card: 9 of Wands reversed
Sometimes I think if I stop, I’ll lose everything.
But what if the stillness is sacred?
What if the ache I feel when I pause is not failure — but the soft hum of healing?
This card reminds me: I don’t have to keep bracing. The wound is no longer bleeding. I’m allowed to rest.
3. How do I protect the divine without becoming the gatekeeper of others’ paths?
Can I keep the flame alive without controlling how others receive the light?
Card: 2 of Wands
It’s not my job to walk anyone else’s path — only to hold my post at the edge of the unknown.
There’s power in being a flame that doesn’t chase, doesn’t convince.
Just burns true.
Let them come when they’re ready. The door’s already open.
4. What old belief says I must prove my truth for it to be valid?
Am I ready to let go of the idea that truth must be defended — or believed — by others?
Card: 6 of Wands
The need for recognition is subtle — but it’s there.
The applause. The “well done.”
But real victory is quiet.
It lives in alignment, not attention.
And I’m not here to be crowned. I’m here to build The New Earth — with or without witnesses.
5. Where am I still attached to outcomes — and how is that limiting divine flow?
Can I release the pressure and let The New Earth be built through steady presence?
Card: Knight of Cups
The romantic in me wants it to unfold beautifully — on time, with signs, with meaning.
But love doesn’t demand an outcome.
This path is poetic, yes — but it’s also real.
So I ride slowly, letting the mission move through me… without needing to script the ending.
6. What deeper message is my body speaking through the pain in my back?
Is this the ache of over-responsibility — or the clearing of what’s finally being released?
Card: 3 of Pentacles
The weight I carry isn’t mine alone.
And maybe that’s the point. I’m not supposed to build it all myself.
Let others lift the beam. Let the structure of support reveal itself.
Pain becomes a signal — not of weakness, but of the need to co-create.
7. What becomes possible when I stop holding the past hostage and return to now?
If the story no longer defines me, can I stop needing it to be rewritten?
Card: The Emperor
When I stop needing to justify who I was, I finally become who I am.
The Emperor doesn’t plead for understanding. He stands.
Rooted in presence.
My past doesn’t need to be explained.
It built the throne.
Now I sit in it — not for power, but for responsibility.
