I woke up to a new day.
I slept — until quarter to six. A long sleep. Something was needed.
Shooing away the guilt or fears that if I don’t get up early I’ll be behind — the illusion of time.
And instead, feeling the blessing: that I don’t have to wake early to work on a future —
Because this is the future.
This is the work.
This is what I commit to all day long.
Trust the divine.
Divinely protected.
Divinely guided.
I choose to be sovereign.
Yeshua never rushed around.
Well — I can’t say never.
But he got to a place where he landed.
So what is there to rush to?
I’m cultivating a new way of looking at life, time, and energy.
And that’s who I choose to be.
🔥 What’s the one thing I want to give energy to and progress even a little bit today?
Honouring the pace of presence — lifting each video not with rush, but with devotion.
🧹 What am I releasing today?
The guilt tied to timelines and early starts. The belief that worth is measured by how soon I begin.
👑 Who do I choose to be today?
One who walks in rhythm with the divine — unhurried, unwavering, and sovereign.
1. What part of me is still resisting the weight of this path — and what does it need to feel safe again?
Rage is the child’s scream: “It’s too much.” Can I meet that voice with truth, not shame?
→ Three of Cups
The part of you that yearns for joy, community, and shared celebration resists the weight because it misses the lightness of being with others. The responsibility feels lonely at times. This part of you needs to feel celebrated, not burdened — to remember that even in solitary service, you’re surrounded by unseen allies and soul family. It doesn’t need fixing. It needs reminding: you’re not alone.
2. Where does the sacred actually live in my day — not in concept, but in sensation?
Was it in the scream? In the ride to Galle? In the plug in the toilet? What moment actually held God?
→ The Devil
The sacred hides in the shadows. In the rage, the scream, the loss of control — that is where your soul cracked open. The sacred isn’t clean or polite. It lives in the moment where the illusion of control snapped, and something deeper was revealed. That discomfort was the divine. The sensation of breaking down wasn’t failure — it was purification.
3. How can I remain sovereign even when I feel like a fraud?
What practice, posture, or breath reminds me I’m not here to be perfect — only to be present?
→ Three of Pentacles
Sovereignty doesn’t mean doing it alone. It means knowing your place in the architecture of creation. You are the builder, the stone, and the blueprint. Your sense of “fraud” arises when you forget that this is a co-creation — between you, spirit, and those quietly holding you. Your craft is your truth. Keep building.
4. What in me is trying to control the pace — and what would it feel like to fully surrender?
Is the pressure coming from the divine — or from an old fear of being late, behind, not enough?
→ Page of Cups
It’s the inner child — tender, earnest, unsure if it’s lovable without performance. He tries to prove, perfect, earn love through doing. Surrender would feel like letting him just be. Soft. Unknowing. Surrender would sound like a song sung to no one, with no need to impress. Return to play. Let it be messy. Let it be felt.
5. How can I love the one who screamed at the computer?
Not bypass, not fix — but truly honour that version of me. What would love say to him now?
→ Five of Wands
By witnessing the inner war without shaming it. That scream came from a place of fragmentation — different parts pulling in different directions, all wanting to be heard. Love him by giving each part space. The angry one, the perfectionist, the tired one. Don’t demand peace — hold the chaos with compassion. That’s love.
6. Where is exhaustion a sign of transformation — not failure?
What if the tiredness is not weakness but signal — that something is clearing through the field?
→ The Sun
Right here. Exhaustion is what happens just before the light breaks. You’re burning through old constructs — that’s why it hurts. But The Sun says: joy is near. Wholeness is on the other side. This tiredness is sacred — it’s the body shedding layers, preparing to shine without distortion. Keep going. Let the warmth in.
7. What would love say to the one who doubts?
What step can I take today that includes the grief, the doubt, the truth — and keeps going?
→ Queen of Wands
She would look him straight in the eye and say: “I see your fire. I see your heart. Even when you tremble, you lead. Even when you fall apart, you rise. You are not here to be understood. You are here to burn true.” She doesn’t coddle. She reminds. You are already who you seek to become.
