I didn’t have my silk pyjamas last night — they hadn’t dried with the constant rain — so I slept naked. And honestly, I’m not sure why I haven’t been doing that more often. It’s so much cooler. I slept better. No need for air conditioning. I think I’ll keep it that way.
That said, perhaps the nakedness linked me back to the unconscious — to sexuality. I must’ve gone to sleep around 10. By 11:30, I woke up on my back… after a wet dream.
No memory of the dream. No images of sex. It just happened. I was lucky it didn’t spill further — I cleaned myself off, showered, and returned to bed. But I’ve never had a wet dream that early into sleep before.
Something about it felt tied to stress. Especially the stress from the bank saying they’d give my money to charity. It brought up a feeling of powerlessness. Maybe climax becomes my release when I have no other.
I’ve been wondering how to bring work and play together — how to let the New Earth way (Work + Play) be that. Not just service, but joy. Ease.
I do remember a part of the dream — a woman. Beautiful. Sexy. Soft presence. It felt like I was in a relationship with her. It was comforting. And it left me wondering…
Is that still in the cards for me? This life I’m building — will it allow for partnership?
Maybe once the temple is built, the right person will enter.
I got up at 5 a.m. and began my practices. And while meditating, it struck me —
Why am I trying to record the orientation call live on Zoom when I could just film it the way I do all my other videos? Professionally. Edited. Seamless.
So that’s what I may do. No more stress.
I’m choosing not to stress about anything.
Stress is control. It means I’m resisting the divine.
The old Earth has been pulling at me since I left South Africa. But I remember what it felt like when I was there — how everything aligned without me needing to force it.
So today… I just choose to trust again.
To let go.
To align with the divine.
—26th July Tarot spread—
1. What part of me still doubts I’m capable of holding this sacred fire?
– Where do I unconsciously fear I’ll misuse the power I’ve reclaimed?
Card: Queen of Cups
Your emotional depth is your strength. But this card reveals a tender self-protection — a part of you that fears being overwhelmed by the very power you carry. The fire doesn’t need to be tamed — it needs to be held with the compassion you already embody.
2. Where am I still dimming truth in the name of diplomacy?
– What am I afraid will happen if I speak what I really see?
Card: Seven of Cups
There may be too many mental “tabs” open — possibilities, personas, projections. This card shows confusion that keeps truth murky. Underneath is a fear of loss: if I speak clearly, I might lose love, opportunity, or harmony. But clarity clears the fog — and reveals what’s real.
3. What am I here to transmit through my body, not just my words?
– How does divine service live in my nervous system, not just my mind?
Card: Six of Swords
You’re transmitting transition itself — the embodied movement from one state of consciousness to another. This card shows that the work is not just intellectual or poetic — it’s cellular. Divine service lives in your ability to navigate emotional waters with grace.
4. Where is my devotion being tested through delay, denial, or discomfort?
– How do I stay aligned when things don’t go as planned?
Card: The Moon
The Moon reveals the unseen tests — shadows, illusions, delayed clarity. Your devotion is being tested in the liminal, the fog. Trust isn’t forged in certainty; it’s sculpted in the dark, where your deepest vows are whispered back to you through mystery.
5. What sacred discomfort initiates the deeper cleanse?
– Where does resistance point toward readiness, not rejection?
Card: King of Cups
Your resistance may actually be a signal that something important is approaching. This card reflects emotional mastery — the kind that doesn’t run from discomfort, but rides its waves. You are ready to lead, not by force, but by feeling everything and staying.
6. How do I discern between real guidance and familiar avoidance?
– What excuses still wear spiritual language as disguise?
Card: Two of Swords
This is the card of mental standoff — knowing, but not yet choosing. You’re being asked to take off the blindfold. Real guidance is embodied, grounded. Avoidance dresses up as “waiting for the right sign” — but your heart already knows. Choose.
7. What becomes possible when I no longer need to be liked?
– How does raw honesty shape the field for planetary service?
Card: Five of Wands
This card brings tension — but not as a threat, rather as sacred friction. When you no longer need approval, your truth disrupts the false peace. That disruption clears the path. Your honesty will shake, trigger, and liberate — all in service of something higher.
