––– SHIFTING THE WEIGHT OF THE PAST –––
Woke up around 3 a.m. from a wet dream — though it didn’t even feel that sexual. Still, had to change my jam jams. Got up properly around 5 or 5:30. Meditated. Did my morning exercises. My back felt a bit better. I feel stronger now — as if the weight from the book has truly started to lift. I hadn’t realized just how much of an energetic hold it had on me.
––– MONEY, MOVEMENT, AND MINDFULNESS –––
Some concerns coming up again around travel — to Dubai, to South Africa — and dwindling funds. I’m really conscious now. But I also know I have to remain conscious always. Not just when it feels tight. This is about sacred stewardship — of energy, of time, of truth, of money.
––– FOCUS FOR TODAY –––
I’ll focus on finishing the email chain, make a few video edits if I can, and keep refining the book. One step at a time. Still breathing. Still in it. And where I can, I’ll rest. Not out of laziness — but as an act of self-respect.
––– DECLARATION –––
I choose to sell my sovereignty to no one.
I let go of the past — not because it’s wrong,
but because it’s done.
It gave me all it had to give.
Now, I walk in presence.
Now, I walk light.
—Tarot Spread—
Cards Drawn:
Page of Cups, King of Swords, King of Wands, Queen of Swords, The Chariot, Nine of Wands, Six of Swords
1. What does it mean to honour divine timing even when it stings?
When synchronicities shift or sessions fall through, can I trust the delay is an invitation — not a denial?
Page of Cups
This moment was never about the session. It was about what rose in you when it didn’t happen. The ache. The longing. The small one inside who still needs to be seen. Page of Cups reminds you: the medicine is here now. Softness is not weakness. This was divine timing whispering, “Turn inward — I’m waiting.”
2. What stories have I outgrown, and why am I still carrying them?
Is this memory sacred… or heavy? Is it helping the mission — or feeding the parasite of pain?
King of Swords
You already know the answer. This king doesn’t need to dramatize the past. His sword is clean. He cuts through nostalgia, blame, and guilt — not to reject the past, but to release it from duty. Your mind is clear now. Use it with love. Speak the truth: “This no longer serves.”
3. Where am I confusing full expression with emotional dumping?
Can I speak my truth to myself first — not for validation, but for liberation?
King of Wands
He doesn’t overshare. He doesn’t need to prove anything. He burns from within — and because of that, others feel him. Let your fire lead. Let your expression be rooted in purpose, not performance. The New Earth doesn’t need more shouting. It needs steady flames.
4. How do I discern when writing activates awakening vs. reactivates old wounds?
Am I creating from remembrance — or from residue? Does this page serve The New Earth, or pull me back to the Old?
Queen of Swords
She’s the gatekeeper of clarity. She asks: Does this sentence serve? She’s not cold — she’s discerning. You’re being asked to channel the voice of the Divine, not the echo of the wound. Cut the noise. Keep the truth. Write clean.
5. What would it feel like to write only from resonance, not reactivity?
Can I let the pen become an instrument of frequency, not force?
The Chariot
You’re ready to move forward. But only when the horses — mind and heart — are pulling in the same direction. If you write from reactivity, the chariot crashes. But when aligned, it soars. You don’t need more speed — you need coherence. Let that lead.
6. Where does my body still hold contracts with pain, and how can I release them now?
If my back is speaking the weight of unshed stories… am I willing to let them go?
Nine of Wands
You’ve been carrying a lot. You’re tired. But the end is near. This card says: Keep the lesson, drop the load. Not everything that wounded you needs to become a story. Let your body rest. Let the ache become a threshold, not a prison.
7. What becomes possible when I trust that I am the sacred witness I’ve been waiting for?
If no one else validates this moment, can I still call it holy?
Six of Swords
You’re already leaving the old shore. This is your crossing. No one needs to clap for it. The waters may be uncertain, but the boat is held. Let the silence hold your witness. Let the journey sanctify itself. The New Earth is birthed in these quiet, sovereign crossings.
