“If I’m not present — I bleed.”
What am I setting my attention to today?
Same rhythm. Edit. Maybe shoot.
Could be the trailer for The New Earth.
Could be just more refining.
Let’s see how it flows.
But yeah — just cut my finger again.
Feels like every day there’s some new slice, bruise, knock.
Like the earth here keeps forcing me back into my body.
Back into the moment.
If I’m not fully with what I’m doing — something sharp reminds me.
And I wonder if I call this in.
Maybe I drift too much into the dream of the New Earth —
the imagination, the vision, the film inside my mind —
and then this place, Sri Lanka, snaps me back.
A dog.
A snake.
A cut.
Just to say: “Stay here.”
What am I letting go of today?
The urge to control everything around me when I feel pain.
The reaction, the sharpness —
It’s just an old way to feel safe.
But I don’t need that now.
I don’t want to be the one preaching peace and then losing it in private.
I don’t want to be a fraud.
So today, I let go of the false control.
The need to win, fix, or lash out.
And just be with what is.
Who do I choose to be today?
Someone who actually lives this.
Not just speaks it.
Someone who catches the reaction before it takes the wheel.
Who sees the cut and doesn’t turn it into a story.
I choose to be the one who walks what he shares.
Not perfectly. But honestly.
Finally… living it.
7 questions for tarot – on the above and how long will i have to wake up at 4.30 am meditate, etc etc until I am in a life where I have people around me doing this stuff so I can focus purely on the new earth…how long will I be living in sri lanka before I am recognised and the new earth takes me comfortbaly around the world?
